I finally gave in and decided to let myself try to date again... First date is fri or sat.. He wants to do both, but I dont see that happening.. Toes in the water, not completely jumping in..
But then the ex, the one I still love, has been texting today. He says he didnt know that he had the option for me to move there. I told him that he did. (I brought it up through text a couple of times.) But he says that he never received it and he wished that he had known.. I dont know what to think.. I have no clue what to do.. Now I think that he wants me to move there... I want to more than anything.. I still love him..
But then theres the date. I cant not go. Im not going to blow him off.. Hes been so patient. Hes sweet and safe. I dont think that he could ever hurt me. But doesnt that make things pointless? Isnt the unsure and passionate firework-love the point?
I dont know what to do. I still love him.