4 classes back to back.. Doesnt seem like much, until you have to go from building to building and hope that you can make it.. Despite that, I actually like my classes. I have a dorky math dude, a hippy chick that reminds me of a female version of Conan O'Brian, the motherly figure, and a brit who sounds more Austrailian. Well these are just my Thursday courses. I still havent met my TA in Tuesday's lab. My MWF courses I have two chicks.
Bf update: Still in love, but having a bad day so the alone feeling is definitely coming to light more.
I find that I still have issues with being touched without permission... I fear that I will be forever screwed up. Im sure I need some heavy therapy.. If only I had the ability to open up quickly to someone. I dont. So it wouldnt work. Or at least thats my momentary view on it. Maybe I am just scared to face everything.. I know that I am. I just never want to admit it. Its these moments that I am glad for the long distance thing, if he could see me, he would know when I am hurting, when I am freaking out, when I have my moments, he would know just how much I am screwed up.
Funny thing, I actually think that he would still love me. As a matter of fact deep down, I know that he would. But theres a fear there still.
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